I need to Rage... Again.

[Pikmin]

Brothers.
Ok, a while ago when I was at music college, my brother was unemployed, and he was soooo miserable and needy. And there were plenty of opportunities to put the boot in, but I never did.
And the amount of times he pestered me after a long day at college, constantly wanting me to play games or linger around my room when I wanted to bloody rest, but I put up with it.

Fast-forward now:

I'm unemployed, and pretty miserable with it 'cos I never really get to do much. Getting constantly hassled by jobcentre and workinglinks, pushing me to apply for work that I really struggle with.
(not that I ever get the jobs anyway).
My brother on the other hand, has a job now, and a girlfriend.
So the tables have turned, does he show me the same grace I showed him?
....
Of course he f***ing doesn't.
Every opportunity he has to be a jerk to me he does, he acts like a cocky bastard all the time. Every time I say something like "I'd love to go and do that" he'll say something like "Go out and bloody do it then, instead of sitting around being lazy"..
If I'd known he was going to turn out like this I would've never been nice to him when he was bothering me. I would've made him feel shit at every damn opportunity like he does to me, but I didn't.
So why the hell has he chosen to conveniently forget all what I ever did for him?
Bear in mind he's 29 years old... Aka: Old enough to know better.
God knows how he actually has a girlfriend..

Needless to say I'm just pissed off now, as if I didn't feel crap enough about not being able to get work, as well as other things, the last thing I need is that jerk making it worse.
I so want to just scream and yell at him and tell him where to stick all his bloody cockyness... But mum hates arguments, they upset her. So I just never say anything...
It's driving me mad..

This post is mainly to get all this bullshit off my chest. I don't know if anyone will have anything they want to say to it or not but never saying anything was just stressing me out...

[ecco]

i think you need to make it clear to him that he should either give you the same compassion and leniency that you gave him when the tables were turned. that or he should just leave you alone.

like Thumper said.
"If you can't say something nice, don't say nothin' at all"

[Pikmin]

I would if I didn't already know how he'd react lol, he pretty much only has two set reactions:

1) To laugh and take the piss more.
2) To have a massive mardy and lock himself in his room for the rest of the day/until he goes out.

So at the moment I'm just avoiding him like the plague. Mum knows about this at least, but I don't want her to say anything and put up with one of his mardys instead. -_-

[sychobunny]

First of all, keep applying because gaps don't look good.
Second of all: he's a jerk. Keep this in mind, because people are generally consistent with their patterns, and when she dumps him or whatever and he's all needy, remind him of now.

[ecco]

*breaks into song*
now then mardy bum,
i've seen your frown and it's like looking down
the barrel of a gun...

*cough* anyway...
sycho speaks the truth, she does~

who cares if he throws a hissy fit? then YOU just laugh at him and remind him he's not a damn teenager anymore. he has no business acting like that at his age.

[Pikmin]

Oh believe me, I couldn't care less if he throws a tantrum lol.
Couldn't even care less if I "accidentally" slammed a door in his face

It really is just the fact it would upset mum... Would solve all the problems if he just moved out.
Next time he starts at me though I'll just bloody tell him 'cos stress gives me headaches e.e

[ecco]

well tbh, he's the only one who can be held to account for upsetting your mum, if he throws tantrums like that when you are just making a fair point, you know? *sigh* i know how it is living with someone that just... makes life hell, tho XD lucky for me it wasnt for tooo long, tho... just long enough to tip me towards the edge of insanity, hah

[Pikmin]

True, if I did end up telling him and he had a mardy, mum would understand 'cos she knows the kind of crap he comes up with.

Families are just a pain really xD Though (you can probably tell) me and my mum get on really well, hence why I just never want to do anything that'd upset her.
But this is my brothers fault so ner - - lol

[ecco]

yea i mean i'm sure she'd be understanding that you just needed to tell him how he's making you feel o.o your mum sounds like the kinda person that is too nice to end up having a go at you for it or something XD which is definitely good, haha. i love my mum but she has an annoying tendency to have a go at me for things that aren't my fault.

especially with boyfriends.
sam will tickle me really badly and i'm SUPER ticklish and i start hyperventilating, giggling and screaming really loud and she comes in and tells ME off for it XD im like WTH MOTHER HE'S THE ONE ATTACKING ME. i can't help an involuntary reaction!! hahaha XD

[Pikmin]

xD That's just not nice lol, it's his fault...
(I hate being tickled... Would probably throw things at people who try)

We've been getting on sort-of okay today though... So for now, all is well.
I wonder how long that'll last..

EDIT: He just had a massive mardy because we didn't have any bread xD
That's the kind of stuff I'm dealing with here, lol

[Pikmin]

Ok I know this is a double post but I'm irritated now, and by what most people here may consider a silly reason, but I still need to rant it. -_-

So I'm on a pet clicky site thing called Valenth, and you can buy pets there with real money... I must've bought so many of them, sooo many.
And they have "shinies" there, basically the same pet but different colour.
And I have NEVER found one shiny cash pet no matter what... Then someone in a thread just pops up "Omg, I found one yesterday, and today I found another!!"
(no offence to that person though, I'd be happy about it too....)
There are loads of people on there with shinies, some have more than one, some got a shiny from only adopting a few....
Where's mine? Why the hell don't I get any luck there? Yes I know it's all "random" and I was just unlucky but it still pisses me off.

Not to mention that site has already annoyed me once which was the reason I left there for ages in the first place.
I had only two limited shinies (limiteds you can only adopt 5 of) and a load of other randoms, and I traded them all for an Imp, which was an officially retired pet.
..... About a week after that trade, they re-released it for a day. I mean yeah it was only a day but that was still enough to f****ing ruin it and waste my trade completely.
And fyi, the limiteds shinies were gotten by getting a lot of limited tubes through trades, by trading my non-shiny cash betas for them.
So effectively, I may as well have just withdrawn the money I spent there from the bank, and set fire to it.

It's just like a theme going through my life at the minute: I can never win anything. If I do well, someone else will have still done better. If there's something I want, someone else will get it. Even on things as petty as games, I never win. I never get a job, my family calls me fat, both my brothers have jobs, one of them has a girlfriend, the other has had them before.
I have... nothing. No job, no boyfriend, barely any friends, no wins on games, and no F***ING SHINY CASH PET

Soooo fed up right now that I don't even care if this makes me look like a brat or anything.