SO lets look at what happened to me?

[Merelia]

Could be. There are people that do expect highly of themselves, but are lazy. XD

[Kira Bella]

First off, she is obviously not liking you for sexual reasons, and was most likely a shallow, selfish little whore (I call them as I see them) and was only useing you to make this other male jealous enough to "plow her".

Females are crule. But every once and a while you might find someone that isn't. You just havent yet. Hell, I went thru 15 YEARS without a special someone, and then when I found one, he screw me over after using me as a sexual play thing.

Humans are weird. And almost never can be statisfied. I do hope that this will NOT stop you from showing someone the amazing person that you can be and are. I just want you to know that.

But if you are up to it, may I give you some constructive critisisum?

[Hiroku]

Kira: I personally rather be sexually used at this point cause the plain old being used just emotionally then thrown aside really has no fun side. . . .

And be as criticizing as you want. . . I like honesty. Not saying I will agree. . . but I will try to listen.

Chu: I said you didnt offend me. . . just the statement annoys me. . . ( mostly when my friends say it to me after they never talk to me of there free will and usually ignore my texts and then they say I dont try or dont chase. ) you dont know me that well. . . so its not like you ditch me and then said "well you didnt try hard enough" Once again I agree with you on your latest point. . . and you didnt offend me. . . just dont like that statement cause of how I have had to hear it.

Merel: not disagreeing. . . just making a point.

Some people friend or romantic relationship. . . do the running away or leaving to see if the person "cares" enough about them to follow. . . Like. . . some people just dont think people care and they dont know how to know unless they are chased cause that shows them that its caring and not just them saying it.

Me myself. . . if I ask someone if they like me and they say yes. My mind cant accept it. . . cause they didnt chose to say it. its like I forced it. So if they say it of there own choice then it means something.

Thats also why I find it hard to believe when people say I am great or nice or hott or awesome or sexy or cute or funny or adorable after I make a thread like this. . . cause In my mind. . . a friend has to chear me up. . . so its like people are doing it as a requirement. . . not a choice.

I am not saying this is a reasonable view. . . just saying its kinda were my minds stuck u__U

[Merelia]

[Kira Bella]

I personally think that you mentally think of your self as less wanted, because of all the stuff that has happened to you. But I think that if you thought of your self on a higher level that others would see you on that level.

I only think of my self on a better level of ... love shall we say, online, because in the real world.. I hate my self.

I get friends on here, because I act like I like my self. I dont think I would get friends online if I truely was in the RL.

I mean, in the real world, I would SO not grab your boxer line. I would be mortified that you would think bad of me. But on here? I do it because I can, and I get to flirt with you shamelessly. And no one can stop me, unless you told me too.. Then it really would be someone stopping me... Yea... Wow.. I failed at that point.

[Hiroku]

Merel: its nothing personal Just. . . thats how my mind works. . . . I am not saying you dont believe it. . . but it just. . . is hard. . . to accept. . . you know?

Kira
Um. . . well I do think low of myself. However that is mostly because I get let down the way i do. When someone likes me. . . I get interested and I get into a better mood. . . and then the betray me again XD

I get what you mean. . . but it just means that you attract people in the real world and here differently. . . . i mean you acted a lot different when i first met you. . .

So yeah. . . I lost my point.

[Kira Bella]

Well.. I changed a lot in the year (almost) that we were apart. And I realized that being a little spoiled teenager isnt what I wanted to be any more.

Or maybe you were with someone at the time, and I reacted differently to YOU because I was un sure of how to act around you. Ever think of that?

[Jarl]

Seriously, and this is coming from a guy who's proxy-known you for a while, man up.

I don't wanna be harsh, 'cause you're an alright dude, but you need to lighten up and look at the world. Now, I don't know how you live, but you live. You're probably not starving, you probably have an education, a family and some friends. Maybe you could nit-pick flaws at them all, but dude, you have them. There are tons of people, even if modern, western countries who live on the street and feed off of garbage and beer. You're not one of them, be thankful for that.

Now, this girl is just a slut, a whore, a skank, someone not worthy of anyone's attention. A worthless, backboneless fucking squid-wannabe russian prostitute from the future. Fuck her and all who associate with her. Fuck the guy who allegedly wrote that, if there even is one, may he choke on a dick and die, the closeted faggot. And even if she chose him, he'll most likely beat and/or rape her, have his friends rape her, steal her stuff, burn her house down or fuck her sister, too. So she's in for a real good time, serves her right. Now, onto you my main man.

I know what being alone and miserable feels like, maybe not as extreme as you, but dude, it's only so bad. Let me be frank here. If it's intimacy you want, you gotta man up. Trust me, no girl honestly wants a 'sulker'. Vulnerable, maybe, one she can take care of, but there's a risk they only like you for that, and when (if) they manage to nurture you back to health they'll dump you for another wreck, throwing you right back to the corner of Miserable Street and Bullshit Avenue. You gotta face that yes, you ARE alone, but if you actually want someone to care for you you gotta be able to give, too.
If it's sex you want, there are always places to go. Maybe not exactly what you think you need, but who knows, maybe it's exactly what you need to get a tighter grip on.. what you need. If that makes sense.

Look, I've been in your position, feeling like the overlooked romantic, the one who could give a girl so much love and protection and yadi-dadi-dah, all romantic notions belonging to the 18th century. Leave them be and take a real look at yourself. You're handsome, and that's coming from a guy who's seen your picture. People could easily dig you and be interested solely because of your looks, so if they aren't swarming maybe it's the personality that's lacking. I'm not saying you need to change who you are, but you probably need to change your views on things. For one, wallowing in self-pity online is probably a pretty big turnoff for the ladykins. We understand that you're sad, but you need to realize that ultimately only you can solve your problem, and for as long as this tactics has been going on it hasn't been very successful. At least I haven't heard of any groupies lining up yet. If they were I doubt you'd be moping. :3 Anyway, try to think of what you think they'd like to see. No, there are no foolproof way to get a girl, but a start is some self-confidence, which you lack, and some humor, which you have. There's no reason why you can't get the ladymakes to like you, you just gotta present yourself like a steak - delicious, well-made and.. uh.. marinated.. as opposed to a packeted sausage, wallowing in plastic... okay, my meat analogy needs some work, but do you get what I'm trying to say?

If you, the reader, has read this far, lemme apologize for a sec. First to Hiroku. I don't know you, dude, and I don't know if my advice is any good but I figured I'd try and give it to you. Maybe it won't change a thing, but I've noticed you, man, and I've wondered why you always wallow when you post anywhere. We all have problems, but we keep them to ourselves. Wallowing can be good amongst friends, but sometimes people want to talk about other things, and eventually, after enough moping, people probably won't care as much. Not 'cause they're bad people, but because they can't keep giving. Secondly, to everyone else for the long reply and the tons of bullshit and bullshitty language. Third, to the mods and admins for cussing like Dirtbeard on a wednesday. Doesn't suit a gentleman.

As a last note, Hiro, I think you could do with some counseling. Obviously you have no self-worth, and that's bad. Just think about it. :3

Much love,
Jarl

[Kira Bella]

- bounces up and down -

JARL I FRIGGEN LOVE YOUR SKILLS! Hiro, hun, LISTEN TO THIS MAN. At least he would have given you at least a laugh out of that, if you dont get any help <3

And.. Do your fingers hurt ? o____o <3

[Merelia]

[Jarl]

Kira Bella: Do my fingers hurt? XD Not really. I'm used to typing up long replies.. I just hope Hiroku didn't take my post the wrong way.. :3

Mere: XD I guess so. Thanks! <3

[x Cross x]

What a mean person!
And why would that girl lead you on, of she was going to go out with this guy >.<

[Haley]

;O;

Aww, poor Hiro-chan
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[Killing.is.fun]

Aww that really is sad.....I have actaly seen that happen to someone befor..

well kinda happen

On of my friends (well ex friends) Had the same thing happen to him but it turned out that it was not really some other guy it was a friend of hers who was jelous of her and actly like him so it not really the same but he still felt the same as you feel....

[LOL UR FACE]

Hiro, take Jarl's advice. That was a sexy reply thar. XD