A place to rant and get advice if you want.

[KoyiTar]

It has nothing to do with the bestest friend I could ever ask for. It has to do with a job where every manager I have aside from one makes me feel as if I am failing at the new job that have put me to. I mean how am I supposed to get it right if they don't actually train me in what I am doing wrong. I just can't feel good about myself when I am made to feel like a failure at a job I worked my ass off to get. Also I walk with a permanent limp on my right leg due to a knee injury that I sustained back when I was 12.

[neomattlac]

Anyways, you can still walk.
Have you tried talking to someone there about the training?

[Illusion]

Huh what? I think I missed something here. xD;

[KoyiTar]

Yes I have and they treat me or look at me as if I am stupid. It's like why did you put me in the position if all you wanted me to do was fail.

[neomattlac]

@Illusion - Koyi thinks she's worthless. She's not.
My girlfriend's no longer my girlfriend.
@Koyi - Can I hug you?

[KoyiTar]

If you were here in person yes and internet hug also yes. I love hugs so yeah anyway *Hugs* Also what happened with you and your no longer girlfriend.

[neomattlac]

Told me that she didn't feel it was fair for us, for me to have feelings for her but for her not to have as much towards me.

[Illusion]

Ah I see. Yeah I already knew that Koyi wasn't feeling good.

Koyi, as for them putting you in a position that you feel you will fail you should tell them that you need more training if they want you to succeed but if they want to just like yell at you or something I think you could always bring it up to HR if where you work has a HR center that is. Other wise I would suggest reporting the company or something because that is bull. You shouldn't have to feel so pressured to do good at your work without the necessary training to do so.


Neo, that's too bad man. *huggles* Are you feeling ok, did you find someone else already or are you just meh? D: Kind of waiting it out and thinking about things, you know? She was younger than you right?

[neomattlac]

Meh, and pissed because I put a lot of time into it, and I saw it coming, and I should pulle dthe trigger first, and what a compound sentence this is, and I am still a lil' angry that I spent $120+ for her family's gifts, and my mom bought them all gifts, and she spent around $30 for all of us.

[Illusion]

Oh ouch, I can understand how that can be very annoying as well! > A> Because in a sense you feel like you've been used, and quite possibly that might be the case and then again on the other hand it may not be. The thing is you can never tell for certain, but it is a sad turn of events. I'm sorry to hear things didn't work out for you.

What about your guy friend though? Or do you not feel comfortable talking to him about the problem anymore since he isn't talking to you? = 3=

[neomattlac]

Yes, I guess I might feel semi-used. As for the guy, I don't know what to say to him. I said I'm sorry, it just makes me feel guilty to talk with him.

[KoyiTar]

I have no idea what to say to any of this. I suck when it comes to relationship help of any sort really. Seeing as I well I don't deal with such things very often anymore and go for long periods of time before dating again after having been with people. Just the way I work I guess I dunno. Meh anyway I am not feeling the way I was anymore I just get into depressive states from time to time and it takes me a bit to get out of them.

[neomattlac]

Yeah, I understand. I hit those too.
I have the worst headache right now. Well, actually, I have had worse, anyways, I think its a migraine.
EDIT: I shouldn't write things at night, because I obviously can't think too well. I wrote him this message:

[Illusion]

So what I get from your message that you're writing to him is that you are possibly going to give him another chance, as long as it's kept under wraps?

I mean I guess that's cool but some people feel it's not fair to hide their love. I kept my relationship under the wraps for a long time. I just recently contacted my dad and step mother and she told me that she already knew for a long time. She said that she knows that I know their beliefs but that she wanted her kids to be happy. It overjoyed me so much and it really did give me a lot of hope.

I know that sometimes you can doubt your family for all it's worth, I know I did, which is one of the reasons I kept it to myself for so long. The only thing is I was the one hurting myself not my family. If you have no other place to go then maybe it's best kept under wraps until you're on your own. However you wanna live your life with who you wanna live your life is your decision alone. You also have the power to do it when you want. So if you want to tell them now or later or not at all is completely up to you.

Good luck with the other girl you're eye balling! Keep a cool head though, don't dwindle on the past, girls don't tend to like that. They generally don't like hearing about that "other" girl. However, they for some reason LOVE hearing a victimized sap story though. As in "pity me I was dumped" sort of way. Just don't mention TOO much about the other girl, like things you liked/missed about her or give them your pet peeves from her such as: "she would always leave something a certain way that drove you nuts". Because any reminder of what you had or if they resemble something that you HAD will drive them nuts. Trust me I know a lot of women like this. So tread lightly, it's my best advice.

[neomattlac]

Shit. That is what it says. Like I said, it was stupid to write that late.
Hell, all my last gf knew about the previous one is that her name was Casey and that she was a friend of a mutual friend.
I've been trying to remember that "The greatest risk is not taking any risk at all." and that you will regret what you didn't do more than what you did do.