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This is Ai's Collection of Poems.
I'd really like it if someone offered some criticism.
It'd be much appreciated.
*Note, I don't like ever name my poems.
Because I suck at it.
> ~>
So bear with me.
The first poem I wrote after I was feeling really bad and had some things going south for me.
I wrote it on my phone and it took me 2 hours and 26 text messages to write.
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Slipping through my trembling fingers
The still fragile sanity that hangs so precariously
Spider webbed out of control
Shattered but not completely broken
Inside I feel numb within my heart which
Struggles to stay in sync with the rest of
Me, whom has no idea how to continue on,
With head held down and feelings pushed
Forth I come seeking relief from the loud
Silence that fills the air taking up all the space
Suffocating the surroundings until I can’t
Take no more of this cruel sadistic game
Called by any other name than Life itself
Continues to rob me of tranquil sleep and
Dreams no longer coming but nightmares
Present are signs which no longer can be
Ignored and neglected like the past once
Allowed but cannot be like before with
Smiles and laughs faked and furtive
Glances nervously behind the façade of my
Real self trapped with the confinements of
My emotional and mental guarded prison
With years of abuse and misery long since
A part of my soul consumed with powerful
Darkness the likes that cease to be seen by
Anyone who could take the time out and
Listen to insistent pleas for help and love but
Instead lost in a world of perpetual night
Lacking color except a monochrome rainbow of
Feelings consisting of loneliness and empty sighs
Cast involuntarily from quivering mouths
Telling quiet untruths and lies not yet
Spoken are not words most important but
Those of lesser meaning and no value to
Contribute to the glacial beauty Life in
Itself a fickle thing of much worth but one
Taken for granted must I no longer be for
I must shed my skin and step anew into the
Radiant light offering to save me from my
Eternal slumber and behold myself with new
Eyes cast upon a barren world seeing nothing
Once the hidden sincerity buried under the
Weight, almost unbearable weight of Life
Versus the longest night and it’s unshakable
Shadow of fear gripping yourself so tightly
With cold limbs stop responding and the
Very being of all you are and all you ever can
Hope is the last remnant of your humanity
Left to cling fruitlessly to an unconquerable
Aspirations no longer mattering as it is used
To feed a bloodlusting society
And unimaginable standards that cannot
Be fulfilled anytime in our small
Flicker of Life only so much the blink of
Eyes glued to scenes of idiocy depicted in
Fashions of arrogance and ignorance turning
Blind to the pain and suffering of others for
Gluttonous greed devouring all that we
Strived to achieve but now will see a bitter
End in sight welcomed as weariness sets in
To claim us as victims and lay us to rest before the
Dark shade of night falls over everything
Hushing and creating a deafening silence
That which is impossible to fill in with sound
No matter what is done and how much we
Shout from the rooftops our proclamations of
A better tomorrow that cannot exist without
First experiencing today and knowing
Nothing of what to expect for the future will be
Illuminated to us the understanding of our
Trivial lives hung in the balance as truths
Come forth to be have delivered and received
Catharsis finally for our time and toiling in
The shelter of our souls locked away in
Damaged bodies like graves above the fresh earth.
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When the world is turned all around
Your feet in the air and your hands on the ground.
Left is right and right is wrong.
Things that were there just don't quite belong.
Changing tides and fleeting lies
New love born and old love dies.
Never leaving the workings of my mind
With debilitating romance still left to find.
Speaking from within but not making a sound
True emotions revealed and feelings found.
But things are all jumbled and mashed up instead
Is this for real...or all in my head?
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Tell me.
Scold me.
Hit me.
Hold me.
Kiss me.
Loathe me.
Hate me.
Love me.
Despise me.
Protect me.
Hug me.
Take me.
Leave me.
Be with me.
Save me.
But please, just let me know you still think about me.
