Why am I so randomly depressed?

[Saporion]

But laughter is a way to make someone feel better. D:

[Angel]

Do I sound like I'm in any mood to be laughing right now?

I don't want to be made fun of. I don't want jokes told about me.

I'm in a sullen enough mood as is.

[Thia Stormhouse]

Okay, seriously?

I've had clinical level depression for the past 10 years, with partial relapses. I'm only 20. I personally know what depression is like.

While individual cases of depression can vary, there's no such thing as "random depression." Depression is caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain, normally transmitted through genetics.

Normal depression is classified by lack of interest in things you enjoy, a feeling of loneliness or the feeling of a lack of emotional attachment to or from people, disinterest in self-health or appearance, etc etc.


What it sounds like you're going through is "Whiny Average Teen Syndrome."
You'll get out of it.

[Chu]

There must be something that caused this. There's no such thing as "random depression".

What have you been dreaming about lately? Feel free to message me your response.

[Angel]

[Jaire Strongclaw]

Yes, I realize that.

I know that there has to be some cause for it, but I simply don't know what. That's why it feels like random depression. :duh:

When I started feeling like this yesterday, I tried listening to music. I just couldn't get into it and it was kinda' just like white noise. I barely posted here, which is one thing I enjoy doing. I couldn't feel close to the people here and just wanted to stay alone. Yesterday, I literally did not eat anything. At all.

So no, this isn't "Whiny Average Teen Syndrome".


[Chu]

I don't dream. I have clinical insomnia and take prescription strength sleeping pills.

I haven't had a dream in... a while. D:

[Chu]

Mmm. That's not good. In my theory you've lost touch with your inner self. Then again... Your insomnia could play a role in the lack of dreaming.

Hm. Have you had any odd or random thoughts lately? Whenever I feel this way I don't think, don't eat, don't sleep... It's like my lifeless body is floating amongst and sea of happiness which I cannot contact by any means. It's nothingness to me, yet I know there's something good beyond it. Is that the same for you? (Most likely not. I asked that out of pure curiosity.)

I've noticed a bit of a change in you in the past... week, I think. I figured something would happen.

[Angel]

Exactly. It's just like someone ripped the essence of myself out of me.

Last night I watched Bridge to Teribithia again. Usually I get all teary-eyed at the part where the little girl dies. But this time, nothing. Just... absolutely nothing.

[Chu]

Okay, so I DO understand what's going on.

What's bad though is that whenever I feel that way, nothing can help me. I'm one of those (and excuse me if I'm boasting) extremely intelligent mind-over-matter people. If I tell myself that I hate someone, I hate them. If I tell myself that I have a fever, I have a fever. If I tell myself that I'm okay, then I really am okay. However, apathy is just... impossible for me to overcome. So what do I suggest? Well... I don't know.

You should try to surround yourself with other people and emotions though. I know that you really don’t want to and don’t feel like it, but even resentment is a good feeling right now. During times of apathy, anything, any emotion at all, can help you get out of it. Sadly, it's something that most people simply must endure, and one of the only things that I cannot provide an explanation or answer for. However, I'm always open if you want to discuss anything to get through this. I know how hard it is to deal with.

[Angel]

Well, it probably sounds like I'm just trying to sound great or something, but I tend to be that way too.

But now it's just, like, I don't have the urge to try and force myself out of it.

I'm going to try the friends thing. I hope it works. D:

[Chu]

Mhmm, for me it's like that sometimes, but others, I truly can't.

Well good luck. ^^ I hope you feel better.

[Angel]

I'm starting to feel better now.

Today was my grandparent's 50th Wedding Anniversary, so I was at this huge party with a lot of my family and it just made me feel so much better. :3

[Vito]

D: My grandparents had there anniversary like 2 years ago.
I was younger than and I was a show off.
<.< We had just gotten a new four wheeler and I was riding around what we call "The mile" at top gear. My brother tried stopping me and I drove by him XD. Then I got off and let him have it and it ran out of gas o_o

[Chu]

@Angel: Well that's good. ^_^


@Vito: D: Poor kid.

[KittinVonTease]

I realize this message may be coming as too little too late but none the less I thought I would try to offer some help.

Whenever I'm feeling depressed or stressed, I try to figure out what it is that is making me feel down in the dumps (work, friends, boyfriends, school work overload, etc). Then I ask myself what it will take me to be happy. If I'm overloaded at work, I tell my boss I have too much on my plate, too much at school, take a day to study up and get caught up, problems with friends/boyfriend, I try to confront them or confide in them.

[monbohn]

I just want to say that I hope you feel better now. I know what you were going through ~ I've been there. It's an awful place to be and hard to handle and come out of. I go through it every so often and I'm glad that I am smart enough to know that it will pass even if if doesn't feel like it at the time. I don't even try anymore to make myself feel better, I just try to ride it on through knowing that it will pass in a day or two. It very seldom has lasted longer than that. Also, I have pets and they are very important to me so when I'm feeling like that I try to remind myself that they depend on me and that even if I feel like I want it all to be over I can't do that to them. It has helped me many times.

I'm glad your grandparents anniversary was able to help bring your spirits back up a little bit and I hope you have continued to feel better since then. Good luck and take care of yourself.